I am only 21 (Female) and over 220 lbs (100kg) but I can't get motivated to lose weight. I am like 1.66 m in length so my body mass index (BMI) is 37... Which means I am very very overweight. I have always been chubby, since I was a child. When I was 16 my weight was around 155 lbs (70 kg: which was chubby but not very overweight) but in that period I had some personal issues like depression and I started gaining weight. It started with me being 190lbs (87kg) and thinking: fuck man. I really need to lose some weight. This was about a year ago. I remember last summer I was so ashamed I didn't dare to wear a bikini to the beach anymore so I bought a swimsuit. Now, around 1 year later, I am even fatter.... Even since I told myself last year: next year you can wear bikini's again :( I stopped my depression medication about 3 months ago and I really want to lose weight.
Only my problem is I can not motivate myself to do so and people around me don't motivate me as well. My BF continues saying: I love you just the way you are. You don't have to do it for me. I prefer girls having a bit more... But that doesn't really help.
I just love food. I love eating and sometimes when I don't feel well (mentally and emotionally) I am eating my feelings away. But I also feel very ashamed, unconfident, hate myself, etc. I just don't feel like I deserve to be beautiful. It is so much easier to think: "Fuck it. I am fatt already and it isn't gonna change so it doesn't matter if I eat this ice cream or not." Please help me... How do you guys find your motivation to work on your body and learn to love yourself?
Submitted April 02, 2017 at 05:24PM by Sammie1232 http://ift.tt/2nt7UBW
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