Hello good people.
I've been a musician for about 2 decades now, used to gig all the time. Then a bunch of stuff happened. Tldr is is was exhausted and my confidence eroded. I couldn't perform in public any more because I was becoming paranoid of everyone. I couldn't relax, it was incredibly painful to perform publicly. So I spent the next 2 years writing my own songs and learning how to use my DAW. Wrote some great songs... then the writing dried up. I started to hate playing guitar even on my own. I became so miserable, I decided to do a gig today. I thought if anything good comes of it, great. If it's horrible, it will confirm my suspicions about how terrible everything is. So, after a minor guitar malfunction and the battery on my tuner suddenly dying, I went to the music shop to fix these issues, all the while thinking what a waste of time it is, I'm gonna regret this, etc.
Those fixed, I set up and started playing. People walked past, smiling, waving, bopping along. These people aren't my enemies, they're just normal people. How did I get this screwed up in my head??? Children walked up to me, wordless. My first instinct was defensiveness. Turns out, they just wanted a song. I played them a song. They were happy, their parents were happy, I was happy. Someone bought me a coffee because they liked my performance. My singing and playing (while very far from perfect) are much better than I thought. It was a great day and a huge weight has lifted.
I read this sub a lot, and thought maybe my story might push someone out of a dirty ol' rut. If you're stuck, just do something. Something. Anything that moves you in the right direction. It might help more than you think.
Submitted February 04, 2017 at 11:35AM by spitz81 http://ift.tt/2jJjv2I
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