[Story] I did a thing!

So I've had a rough couple months, a breakup with a girl I admired and loved dearly, some bitter realisations about the direction of my life (not having accomplished enough, not being true to myself etc), moving out of the city so I'm a bit more isolated from all my friends, a very serious argument with family members about our relationship and behaviour as a family, a couple other rejections with girls. I was in the gutter for a few weeks, mind all over the place, anxiety, feeling rejected, lonely, you name it.

I've also dropped out 2 times and I still haven't given up finishing my degree but it gets increasingly difficult to study and do it alone and because I have no friends and little in common with the age group I have classes with. So that's another one.

I've been wanting to join some club or something for years, but I never acted on it, I was always too lazy to just put the effort in joining something or even scared of starting a whole new thing in my life. Finally all these hardships made me realise I need to do something, be proactive, and also really needed some distractions in my life, preferably something physical so i can let all the frustrations out, so yesterday I went for a Kickboxing class in a dojo next to my place, and I really liked it.

I was afraid it would be awkward or that I would be judged because Im already 25y old and with no previous experience, but there were so many different people there, from kids to guys almost double my age, a lot of women too, so that put me a bit more at ease. And it was a big hurdle for me to surpass even the fact that I went to this class at all. And it's amazing how liberating it can be to punch and kick the hell out of something. So I've signed up and I hope next week I can keep doing this, for as long as I can.

I know mentally I'm still not as strong as I would like, so I try to work on that every day through meditation, journaling, etc, and these small feats add up to the mental toughness I would like to achieve one day. So I guess yesterday was a small big victory for me!

Submitted April 07, 2018 at 05:40PM by Kaneco_ https://ift.tt/2v0MHID