I apologise in advance if this is not the right tag!
I felt like I needed to air this out on a platform I'm somewhat anonymous on but still familiar with.
Today is my 23rd Birthday and with each year, the number of people who I thought were friends, would decrease as they would congratulate me. Today, I got especially upset when some people did not reach out to me but I always be there for them and make time for them.
I got a message from one of my best friends who called me a "truly magical woman". I cried when I read that because I felt like I'd just been existing for the past couple of years.
Her message forced me to sit down and I thought to myself "why am I trying to find happiness in what other people do for me or say to me?". I always used to say that I did not base my happiness on other people. I was just lying to myself. This needs to change. This is not how I am.
I have also been very depressed but a close friend has literally forced me to see my GP. I feel like I'm stepping in the right direction.
I will be deleting some accounts on different sites, alt accounts and profiles and work on myself with the support I have from my family, especially my younger brother and my close friends.
Next year, I want to be better physically and mentally. I hope that I will be able to look back on this and see that it was truly a start to something good for myself. It's been a very long time since I've felt good about myself or things that I do.
Happy Birthday to myself and many more magnificent years to come.
Sorry about the long ramble and any mistakes. I'm crying too much to see any typos xD
Thanks for reading :)
Submitted December 04, 2017 at 05:29AM by AmauryStan http://ift.tt/2zJ6CcN
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