[Discussion] Finding my goals?

Hello, fellow redditors.

I was struggling with getting motivated for a long time. I never had to learn, never had to work on myself, never had to improve.

I left college because I was supposed to become a teacher - and I don't want to be a teacher. I left my hometown and moved, now working as a personal assistant for disabled people. It's fine, but it doesn't bring me joy.

I don't know what I want from life. I like travelling - but I need to get money first. I wanted to be a psychologist, but it would destroy me. I couldn't do it.

I'm now trying to get to another college and I should be a programmer in few years if I will be able to make it. Sounds like fun to me, but what if I decide I don't want to do that either?

I'm 20, struggling so hard right now. I suffered from depression since I can remember and I've recently realised I don't have anything. I believe I could achieve many things. But what things? What is there for me in this world? Is there anything?

I somehow believed I will never make it so far in life. I was suicidal for some time but not really because of pain, I just didn't see my own future, I believed I didn't have to care about it since I wasn't going to make it anyway. But I want to. I want to make it. I want to have goals and fulfill them and be happy and just enjoy living.

Submitted February 05, 2017 at 06:10PM by Andysaurus_Rexx http://ift.tt/2jOTkaN